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Sentencing Impact Statements… How can the jury ever understand, WHO Saskia was, HOW monumental her loss IS - even to those who never knew her.
Saskia’s LIFE impacted far too many people… A huge STATEMENT about the person she was. A vibrant, confidant, and oh so happy young woman, Saskia went about her wonderful life on just a ‘regular’ day, touching people she didn’t even know in so many ways… Just SIMPLY BEING – Saskia.
22 December 2011
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Dear Saskia,
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You probably don’t remember me, but that’s all right. I’m a freshman who’s looked up to you since the start of school this year. I remember I met you when, at least for the first few weeks of school, we were both in the choir Lyrica. During all the silly, but fun “getting to know you” activities, we kept getting grouped together. I remember how hardly anyone could get your name right, but I just kept thinking how pretty it was and that it only fit that someone as beautiful and lovely as you should have a unique name to call your own. I also remember during the “pterodactyl” game, you always got out because you burst into giggles every time, and that your laughter encouraged everyone else’s, until all of our sides hurt and we were red in the face from laughing at how ridiculous we were.
Right off the bat, you were warm and inviting to simply everyone – something I, a lost little freshman, was drawn to. Your smile certainly lit up the awkward, humid air of the choir room that day. Along with the awkwardness left any doubts I may have had about high school seniors.
I remember how I was simply ecstatic when we were placed in our sections and you were an alto. Knowing I would be, too, I was relieved to have a familiar face amongst the people I knew that I would grow very close to as the year went on. Better still, we wound up sitting right next to each other on the risers. Did I mention that this entire time, you simply radiated happiness? I guess your confidence was contagious because I found myself looking up to you as a role model. I came to class every day, absolutely terrified (of what, I’m not sure) yet you were calm and content, smiling the whole time. I could only hope to be like you one day.
So, even after you switched out of Lyrica, (which I’ll have you know was quiet saddening!) I knew who you were, and really, I knew I’d never forget. I saw you nearly everyday, at least once, typically between classes. I always wanted to say “hi”, but never did. I guess I was afraid you’d think I was some weirdo freshman. I guess that’s how all lower classmen feel about seniors, huh?
Words cannot express how sorry I am that I never got to know you better. It still feels like I’ll see your smiling face in the halls when we go back next semester. I wish I could have been able to call you a friend, because nobody would be a better friend than you. So, Saskia, I’m so sorry I never had the courage to say “hi”.
I’ve brought you a teddy bear with this letter, because even the bravest of us get scared sometimes, and when that happens, we need someone to hold on to. I hope that with this bear, wherever you are, you’ll never have to be scared again. And if you have to, at least you’ll never have to be alone. Because NO ONE SHOULD HAVE TO BE ALONE.
I want to thank you for everything you’ve ever done. Not just for me, but for anyone and everyone else you’ve ever so much as smiled at. Thank you for giving me a role model for the first time in my life. I can only hope that one day I can have as much love as you always have – for myself and for everyone else.
Thank you for being you:
A beautiful person both inside and out and the best role model anyone could ask for.
I’ll never forget you, Saskia.
I love you & I miss you.
Your terrified, freshman fan.
Oh, my darling baby girl... How do I go in and tell those jurors - This MURDERER SIMPSON replaced every piece of my happiness and joy with agony and sorrow; took my peace from life FOREVERMORE and gave me a constant unendurable horror for each excruciating moment of this existence! Everything that was fulfilling and so beautiful to me came from YOU Saskia! NONE of the others ever had what only you possessed… I am just a pawn now – ONE THAT WISHES TO CRAWL OUT OF HER SKIN WITH EACH BREATH, AND GO SCREAMING STARK RAVINGLY MAD OUT OF HER MIND
FROM THIS NEW LIFE THE MURDERER WILLIAM GARY SIMPSON GAVE TO ME!
To find the child that never stops screaming inside my mind, my heart and my soul…
Oh, Saskia!!!!!
