My hesitation guilt

On Sunday I hesitated. I thought about how much it was going to cost to go to ER before making a medical decision for my son. He got injured on the basketball court at a tournament in Sacramento and we were 2 hours from our home in Sunnyvale. Luckily it was a "minor" injury, nothing life-threatening or life altering. But it was an injury - dislocated finger. His coach who has some medical training quickly popped it back into place. He became queasy, light-headed and thought he was going to pass out or throw up. Everyone had an opinion...take him to the doctor now, wait until you get home, take care of it at home and not go to the doctor, etc. In the end, I decided to take him after the game (he refused to go until it was done) to the ER in Sacramento. But I had hesitated...what was this going to cost. I'm grateful that although it is an unexpected expensive, it is however an expense that we can cover. We are more fortunate than the clients that are served by West Valley Community Services (WVCS), the agency that I work at. WVCS is the safety net for those who are struggling to make ends meet - food, shelter, utilities, transportation, medication are out of reach for many of our families. I wondered what decision a mom at our agency would have made if faced with the same situation. I'm pretty confident that she would have taken her son home and cared for him there knowing that $100 was more than they had or could afford to use. I hesitated and feel like a "bad mom" in my hesitation. I can't imagine what it would feel like to make the other decisions that our moms at WVCS make everyday. They aren't "bad moms". They have no choices. Medical care shouldn't be a financial decision.