Being Single & Ending The Pain

By: Kenneth Stepp 

Where is the end? What does it look like? What ends? I guess you could say that I toy with these questions more than I should. I dwell there. Not a very good place to stay. I am unable to move away from this place. My hope is that others can be helped by my story. 

There are so many ways that people handle serious pain. For me. I came dangerously close to the ultimate act of desperation. If not for someone that loved me unconditionally. I would not be writing this today. Am I weaker than everyone else? I don’t believe I am. I am very strong. Pain can be stronger than the most powerful personalities. Mine was. Many days, it still is. I will try to explain without making others afraid to be around me. 

“A person will remain the same until the pain of remaining the same is greater than the pain of change” – unknown 

This quote actually explains the suicide victims thought process. Sometimes the pain of life we are going through. Is simply more than we can take. Not being alive is the answer sometimes. To those never buried in that kind of pain. It will be easy to judge the rest of us that get this. For me. It was a reality. Still is most days. 

I have friends that make me promise from one day to another. I accommodate them. Mostly because I know they care. For that. I want to honor them. I know the care. friends like them are hard to find. Do you have these people in your life? If so. Keep them close. they are golden. 

Suicide. There, I said it. get comfortable with it. Running from it is tantamount to sticking your head in the sand. Us depressed people needs friendship, not cliches and empty words. We get plenty of those. And the next person that says they will pray for us. Well…. They are a special kind of faux friend in my opinion. Not people we need in our lives. If you have them in your lives. Merge them towards the door. Dealing with being at the end of ourselves isn’t an easy place to be. I hope to hear from them before their final exit. I want to talk to them about why they are in this place from the view of someone in it all the time. I can help. I know I can. Talking a person down is something I have been honored to do only once. 

Try not to allow another person make you value their life more than your own. Again, been there, living it right now. What does that mean? Not a damn thing. 

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