A Whisper In My Ear

Nearly one year ago, I began preparing for my senior year, getting clothing, buying books, signing up for classes and praying my professors (off campus learning) would be good ones.

On another hand, I started thinking about my life after St. Michael-Albertville High School. Not just in relation to colleges, but who was I going to be? What was I going to make with my life? How was God going to be a part it all? I began discerning what His will was, and how I was going to do it.

NET Ministries was something that was basically whispering in my ear. No one really talked to me about NET, or told me I should do it, or said I should think about it.

No, it was just on my heart. For example, I kept thinking about it all the time. I found this old sticker from NET in a pocket of shorts from the summer before. I would go on Facebook and it would pop up nearly every time. Once I even was accidentally redirected to their website (www.netusa.org), am I’m still not sure how that happened.

I kept seeing it, and the more it popped up, the more I thought how crazy I would be to actually do it: 30 minutes of personal prayer every day, prayer as a NET Team for up to one hour every day, Mass all the time and sleeping in a different home and bed nearly every night, little sleep, traveling over 22,000 miles, putting on retreats for over 8,000 teens, and living with 11 other young adults with little time alone.  

I didn't think that I could do it, but I knew that God wouldn't give me anything I couldn't handle, so I looked into it.

When I finally emailed NET and asked for an application, I felt so at peace with at least asking for one. I didn’t know for sure or not if I would make it, or if I would even get a interview, but I knew that God wanted me to take that application, fill it out, and send it in and let him do the rest. So that’s exactly what I did. And three days after I put it in the mailbox, I got a phone call inviting me to go on an interview. I had to wait almost 4 months for my interview date, and three days after that to find out that I was invited to serve on NET, but in light of it all, it really was so worth the wait.

When I found out I was accepted, I discovered it would be 206 days until I would actually leave for NET. Now, as I hit so many date markers, 100, 50, 30, and now 20 days left, I can't believe that it's finally just around the corner. I am scared, excited, nervous and happy at knowing it’s so soon here, but knowing I’m also leaving my family, friends and this community makes it really bittersweet. No matter what though, I know this is where He wants me. I think this is definitely a situation in life where I need to let go of all my anxieties, and just let God work.