Premonitions

Have you ever woke up at night with a bad feeling?  Not quite able to put your finger on it?

Or, get off the phone with someone and just know something is going to happen?

This may sound really strange, but I have been experiencing "feelings" so strong that I am actually kind of weirded out about it.

It started on August 3, 2012, while laying in bed staring at the wall at 2am.  I am not sure why I woke up or why I was even staring at the wall at first; blind as a bat without my glasses and sitting in the dark, what was I going to see?

Well, I did start seeing something.  At first it looked like green/black slow swirling ball of smoke.  I blinked my eyes a few times to make sure it wasn't my imagination.  Slowly a face started to appear in the smoke, real fuzzy at first.  The face started taking on more definition; it reminded me of the wizard in Lord of the Rings or Harry Potter less the beard.  It didn't do anything but look back at me for a moment, then opened its mouth.  Inside the mouth was a rotating metal ball; similar to the binder balls.  I wasn't scared  but thought I needed to get my medications switched.  I closed my eyes, reopened them and the next thing I say was the back of a little man, wearing green and riding a bike which slowly disappeared.  Crazy right?

The next few days I was exhausted, no particular reason.  Then on August 5th, as I was getting ready to lay down, strong feelings of sadness overwhelmed me.  I couldn't do anything but cry and worry about my oldest son.  I texted him all night long, even wished him a happy birthday at 12:01am August 6th, told him how much I loved him and missed him as if I was never going to see him again.  He kept reassuring me that he was fine.  I didn't sleep all night, texted throughout the day because my anxiety was increasing.  Sure enough, my son was pulled over on his birthday, beaten and arrested by the Farmers Branch Police Department in Texas. 

Have had a few feelings since then; every time my son has been attacked while waiting for his arraignment.   I should clarify that my son panicked when the police asked him to step out of the car, then proceeded to assist him, whereby, his car was bumped into neutral on accident and rolled into the police cruiser: felony assault of a police officer for his car bumping theirs.  He is being held with infamous felons from 48-hours.  Just great!

Recently, I knew something was going to happen with my fiancée' and just didn't know when.  It was more like a prediction versus a premonition that I had with my son.  Then on Saturday, September 15, 2012, a premonition happened.  I just spoke with Mario at 7pm and noted that he was drinking while getting his hair braided.  He wasn't listening to reason so I had called his mother for assistance.  I was crying again.  Sure enough at 10pm he caught a flat tire, highway patrol pulled up, and he was arrested for driving under the influence. 

It is almost like I know something is going to happen and right before it happens I have a crying fit.  Out of curiosity, I tried researching what I saw in the bedroom that night.  I came across a "Messenger" which would describe the smokey figure.  Messengers tend to come to deliver bad news.  Well, since seeing this "Messenger" I have had very strong feelings and am not sure if it is a good or bad thing.

If anyone else has experienced anything like this, please share.  I would really like to understand the things I am feeling and/or experiencing.