Dating After Divorce "Am I Crazy"

by: Kenneth Stepp

Down time, alone, distant, hermit mode, etc. They all mean one thing. I have unplugged from everyone and everything. Does anyone else do this? I find myself to be on the bizarre side on self entertainment these days. Here’s an example from an hour ago. My favorite play is Fiddler on the Roof. I love the music. Butchering it seems the theme today. Instead of singing, If I were a rich man. I made up a redneck version to the same tune. Fiddling on the Stoop. If I win the lottery, Yaba daba daba daba daba do. Geez. Really? Fred Flintstone’s line too. I have either gone crazy for doing it or admitting I did it. I’ll let you decide while I try to find a drive through shock treatment center near me.

I learned so much about humans years ago when I was asked to set up surveillance inside an elevator of a highrise in Downtown Atlanta. My camera recorded every sight and sound. I reviewed it every morning while riding on the roof of the elevator. While it was running. People are just weird. Some weirder than others. One very classy girl in her mid forties, well dressed and gorgeous. She got on and as soon as the doors shut. She would spin in circles. Doors open. She is prim and proper. I thought far more of her afterwards than before. About half of them did something different when alone. I was amazed.

“A question that sometimes drives me hazy: am I or are the others crazy” - Albert Einstein

Albert was probably a hoot at parties. Yes. We are all psychologically challenged someway. Some of us sing silly songs. Others are so uptight in public. Spinning when unseen becomes the only way we can unhook from the uptight bonds of seeming normal. Face it. We are all the same in different ways.  To lament one act or another we catch ourselves doing, might be the craziest thing we ever do. Regretting my craziness. Not on my menu.

In the society we live in. Seriousness is worshiped. Suited up, and ready for business people get the most attention. Well, unless your picture is on one of those Walmart picture sites. I test this theory all the time. I have a place I frequent. I wear shorts and tennis shoes, T-shirts too. I stopped by on the way home for dinner. I was in a nice suit. I was treated completely different. I could feel the respect & admiration. I don’t get that. But, its why we show people our “normal” side instead of the real us. As singles. Many of us do this on dates. Especially first dates. I don’t believe I ever have. But I’m sure I try to put my best foot forward.

“You have to go on and be crazy. Craziness is like heaven” - Jimi Hendrix

Jimi knew how to live. He pushed boundaries. I hate that he pushed them too far. The world is a much sadder place without him. A true poet.

I had a great point when I began writing this. I believe it was to convince you to lighten up. Life will be there when you get back. Enjoy today. Live it to the fullest. If you want to do something but thought you would be crossing a line. Cross it anyway. Have something to say. Say it. What’s the worst that can happen? Usually there are two ways those things end. With a yes, or a no. Fear or freedom. Those are your only real choices. If someone said you did this or said that, is that what you fear? Or, you discover you can live with the freedom to say this or do that. Which is really the tragic one?

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