I'll Never Be Famous

So as far as lives go mine is pretty okay, but as many feel I am sure, there are things I would like to be better. 

I often get discouraged about where I am in life…I work in an inner city school district where the pressure is always on and I get little appreciation. I live in a house that is not my dream house, and it is constantly in a state of construction while my busy husband tries to complete these large tasks himself with a job, a wife, and three kids and limited funds. 

Let’s face it, for most of us money is always in the picture, and no matter what there could and should always be more. Lastly, my kids are my life but they are work…two of the three have ADHD, one of which has what some doctors and her teacher have said to be possibly the most severe case they have ever seen. 

I can tell you I had not thought of that when thinking of the things of distinction people would say about my kids. To that you get to throw in a mood disorder to make it more interesting because clearly life would be to boring and easy with just the hyperactivity and impulse issues. To all that you can add the toddler with energy and attitude…BIG attitude. I joke she is the “mother killer” and was the child that drove home to us that three is it and all we can handle.

For the most part I try to focus on the good in my life when I am feeling discouraged. We have a home, David and I both have jobs, despite some bumps in the road we are all healthy, we have family on both sides that love and support us.  Overall life is good. 

Sometimes though you just are not feeling it totally and then you see it…A friend from your adolescence, someone that you used to sleep over at her house is a semi celebrity who is an important person at a MAJOR world magazine and lives of course in the Big Apple and has been on television on a fairly regular basis over the past several years. I am not talking a local small city show, I am talking major network morning shows, I am talking that show in the afternoon with all the MD’s on it! 

Yup, the day I found out just how far this person's career and glamorous life had come I was sitting in the 99 with David and my three insane people who had not gotten their afternoon calm down meds, sharing a not so glamorous dinner while telling them to “get out from under that table!” “Sit on the chair!”  “Do you remember what the old lady in the book says? Hush!” 

As I was sitting there I was thinking of my life compared to this person who was probably having a nice dinner in a fancy restaurant with important people and when you Google her name all kinds of professional pictures of her come up along with images of her on various television shows.

As with anytime I am feeling less than thrilled with how things are going for me it did not last long.  The next day I was laying with the baby while she was drifting off to sleep with her arms around my neck, and breathing her baby breath on my face, after 100 “I WUV YOU MAMA”’s that day I was thinking there was really no place I would rather be and really, who wants to get up at 3 in the morning to go to a makeup chair anyway? 

If I really look at the big picture I prefer my mornings with five of us all piled in the bed with feet and elbows and "I wuv you"s all around!