There comes a time in a alcoholics life when they say enough is enough, as the time came for me back in October of 2009.
I finally realize that my life was going nowhere, but downhill each and everyday I continued to drink alcohol. Granted, I loved my alcohol just as much as the next person, but my problem was I didn't know when to stop drinking. It was never enough, and the buzz I had became harder and harder to achieve unless I drank more than the last time I drank.
When I realized this and surrendered to my long time of drinking and abusing alcohol, my thoughts were to be able to help others surrender to their addiction to alcohol as I did.
There were lots of things I had to change in my life. The first thing was to change my attitude towards life and stop feeling so sorry for myself. The more I drank the more depressed I became, and I had nothing to look forward to, but my next drink of alcohol.
No one made me become an alcoholic, I did it all by myself, and I was not proud of the life or lifestyle I lived in at all.
On the night of October 26, 2009 was my last dance with alcohol. About a week later I began to start writing my experiences with alcohol on many different websites trying to get the word out that sobriety is a wonderful thing if you only give it a chance.
The alcoholic has to sit back and think exactly what they are doing to themselves and all those that love and care for them, such as your spouses, children, parents and friends.
You are destroying their lives right along with your own, just the alcoholic never sees this as I never did when I drank and abused alcohol.
When you decide to stop drinking alcohol forever, as I did, you need to think and act with a positive attitude at all times and not let anyone or anything stop you from getting and staying sober.
Granted, in the beginning of my sobriety it was really tough and my demons were pounding in my head saying, "we need alcohol!" My body was not used to having no alcohol, and it sure was hard to say no to the urges and temptations that came about me each and everyday.
The thing was with me is that on that night of October 26, 2009 I made a promise to myself that I would never touch a drop of alcohol again as long as I live, and I am a person that never breaks promises, and especially to myself.
If you do have an addiction to alcohol, or any substance for that matter and want out of the life you live, you first need to get out of the denial you live in. That was one of the biggest problems I had. I lived in denial and truly thought I didn't have an alcohol problem at all, and the people that called me on this addiction I had, I thought they were all nuts and didn't know what they were talking about.
Now that I am clean and sober since 2009, I now realize exactly what my family and friends were talking about.
Get out of denial, think and act positive, love yourself enough to surrender to this addiction you have that will eventually will kill you, one way or another.
