Health & Fitness
It was a bad day plain and simple.
Have you ever been raped or know someone who has been? Read my blog to hear in detail what it is like years later after being raped and still dealing with the trauma.
Yesterday was a bad day. I could use big fancy words to describe it but plain and simple it was bad. In 2007 I was raped by someone I had known since I was 12. He was never charged because the County Prosecutor said it was a weak case even though there was physical evidence. Its been years since I have thought about that night but for some reason a flood of memories came rushing back to me last night. I cannot explain why or how it happened. All I know is one minute I was fine and the next I was crying hysterically grabbing at my own neck. I had never told my husband before (he knew of the rape but none of the details) that while I was being raped the person was choking me also. I have never had such an experience with those memories before. It was as if I was back at my old apartment experiencing all of the emotions again as if I had just been raped. While this was all happening two of my children were still up and my husband was very confused as to why I was being so hysterical.
Once I finally calmed down I was furious with my husband. How many times have you had flashbacks or bad moments and I've given you all the love and support you needed?! What's the first thing he says to me once I calm down, "Honey, the baby is ready for you to feed her." I know he didn't mean to be so insensitive or such a jerk but good Lord, could you give me a dang second to come back to reality before you start pestering me again?! Plain and simple, it was just a bad day, a really bad day.