PTSD is exshausting!

Last week was rough....what am I saying everyday is a rough day around here for the past year. There are days when I feel like I cannot connect my feet to the ground and that there is no hope of any of this ever getting better. The nightmares still keep coming, the flashbacks, the aggression, and everything else that comes along with having PTSD...it just all never seems to end. I feel exhausted from the moment I wake up 'til the moment I go to bed. I find myself starting to fear leaving the house because of what will or will not happen if I am not here. What if he is having a "moment" and needs me but I'm not here? What if my son is having a hard day with his own struggles and am not here to help them both? So many what ifs, it can make a person go NUTS!!! The only hope that I get is in the feeling of connecting with other people through Wounded Warrior Project. Hopefully one day this will all be a distant memory.