Where do we go from here? Who or what is really winning this fight? The PTSD or our marriage? There are days when I truly feel at war with myself and PTSD. I wish that PTSD was something that I could grab and literally beat the shit out of!! How dare you come into our lives! We did not ask for this, we do not deserve this! How dare you put our family through this. Why is there such evil in this world?! How can God let this happen? Where is God in all of this??? I SCREAM TO YOU WHERE IS GOD IN ALL OF THIS!?!?!? Is he there in the corner holding me when I cry? Is he laying next to my children in bed while they cry listening to Mommy and Daddy scream at each other? WHERE ARE YOU!?! I am begging you to come out grab me and do not let go of my soul Save my children dear Lord! PTSD is PURE EVIL! It literally sneaks into a persons soul and eats away at it. Make the nightmares go away. I wish I knew how to heal all of this for him. I would do literally anything to kick PTSD out of our house. Get out of my husband! Get out of my family! Leave my children ALONE! GET OUT OF MY MARRIAGE!!!!!!
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