Today's Subject...Quarter Life Crisis

There has been a lot on my mind these last few weeks to the point where I can’t seem to finish a single thought. Have you ever felt that way before?

I knew you would say yes, so hopefully you can relate to the following as I attempt to ease my suffering on virtual paper.

Last night I had a dream that I was a tower guard at a castle in the olden days. Picture Monty Python’s The Holy Grail era (and no, there wasn’t a defensive bunny in my dream and I didn’t have a set of empty coconuts). I was adorned in the standard chain mesh netting chest plate, a metal hat that looks like the bishop on a chess board and I was armed with my rudimentary bow and arrow. I was defending the castle, with all of my training and precision-it was up to the aim of my arrow to protect this homestead. I dreamt I was shooting at the enemy through the arrow loops in the turret, and shouting at the archer on my left as we plan our next move. The dream was so vivid; it almost made me think this was an
experience I had in a previous life. What does this all mean? I woke up this
morning thinking of the arrows, the castle my armor and it left me wondering
how this all relates the endless thoughts that have been all consuming
recently. Naturally I “Google” the term “meaning of dreams” and find a website
dedicated to interpreting symbols and events in one’s subconscious. Sounds
legit.

As I approach the last stretch of my 20’s, I have been evaluating my career, my
relationships, my purpose; and I have discovered that I am more than what I have
been. What I mean by that is I seek a higher level of myself. I know I am
capable of being better than who I am. This revelation is all very confusing
and it has left me wondering if I need a new career, or a change in lifestyle
or just a new haircut. What does it mean? HELP ME! Now I know what John Mayer
was referring to when he said he is having a “quarter life crisis.”

I recently got some news that leaves me questioning the stability of my current situation, oddly enough the all wise and knowing dream dictionary stated that to see a castle in my dream means I have an extreme need for security and protection, and to dream about a knight symbolizes that I have honor, protection and security in my life.  The bow and arrow mean I am aiming towards perfection-if perfection even exists. So with my research and fact finding-extensive I ensure you-I can only come to one conclusion.

Everything will be okay.

After getting the stability shattering news, I needed to turn to
my best friend – the love of my life – for guidance, reassurance and advice. After
telling him my worries and uncertainties about the near future and what this
change might mean for me….his response was “we will be okay.”

It dawned on me today, just now actually, that he is my knight, my
castle, my security, my protection, my aim for perfection – which does exist. We
are in this together, protecting our fortress with our bows and arrows taking
on the outsiders that try to break in. Behind us, fighting with us is our
families who are so supportive and loving. Without this “inner circle of trust”
as Jack Byrnes from Meet the Fockers would call it, our castle would crumble.

So as I reflect on all of my unfinished thoughts, there will be more questions
that need answered, more decisions I will have to make and certainly more
enemies to combat but regardless of what the world throws at me, “we will be okay.”