A Surprising

I have a birthday coming, in a matter of hours. As much as I try to downplay it, I can’t. It’s a biggie, and I’m more than a mite intimidated by the number.

I see it looming on the calendar. This year it will be quite different. That frightens me more than a bit, and I wonder why?

Is it because I’m too young to be so old?

Or is because I now begin another surprising part of life’s journey into an unknown adventure in time? This decade I will walk alone without my Lover holding my hand,.

As a consequence of the Covid invasion, no family will share the momentous day with me. Alas, not even one of the Fabulous Four will be permitted a visit. A price I am happy to pay for their continued safety and well being during this tumultous year of 2020.

I know those who touch my world with loving care will call and send gifts. None of them have forgotten since the moment we first shared any of life’s exquisite moments. We will FaceTime and once again, I will be embraced by love and constant support.

However, this is an important birthday, one I hadn’t anticipated would arrive. I can’t deny that it would have been lovely to share it with everyone I love. However, I have been blessed to share many other blessings of my life’s journey. That has been far more important than just one day.

I admit I never realized how quickly life was moving. While it continues, I must ask myself questions.

What would I have done differently? Anything?

Surprisingly only a very few things come to mind.

I wouldn’t have worried. It has taken a lifetime to learn that.

How foolish it is to waste time with anxiety. Of course, I acknowledge that is totally unrealistic. I doubt if there is a woman on this earth blessed with youngsters who hasn’t known fear or tasted sorrow while her brood was growing up.

I believe I might have enjoyed being a blonde possibly for a month or maybe two.

It would have been luxurious to have been serene rather than well, harried.

Still, if I had done any of those things, I wouldn’t be me. I’ve had such fun and known more love during my time in this amazing world than I ever deserved.

So, no, I don’t think I would change anything I’ve done even if it were possible.

The road I have traveled was filled with miracles, large and small, and shared with such amazing fellow pilgrims. There were a few times when I stumbled over an occasional pitfall, Yet when I recovered, life seemed even sweeter.

No, I wouldn’t change a thing. Not even the color of my hair. I wouldn’t look like myself, but someone else. And I never wanted that.

So onward as long as the Good Lord allows. And now a thank you to all who have listened for ten years as words have spilled and I stumbled forward on my wonderful journey in time.