JWG's Willing to Believe — July 17, 2013

from JWG’s WILLING TO BELIEVE

Zwerglipatch  Wednesday, July 17, 2013  6:18 a.m. EDT

Anger and sadness are the dominant emotions after reading news of the day.

A Texan Representative advises that the hate-crimes bill and same-sex marriage will ruin America and Christianity.

In New Mexico, a bullied teenager could no longer stand his life, nor himself in it, and ended what could have been a most productive, helpful Life. This is, for me, the ultimate sadness.

Beginning a day with anger and sadness, needless to say, is not the best way to start. It makes me ponder what can I do?

Lately, I have not been sharing these scribbles as much due to the fact that I have not taken the time to type them. Actually, I pondered if they are worth sharing. I have shared enough words for those who care to read. Knowing who I am is possible for anyone who can google. How much of my life need be known? How many of my words are important, or necessary? I do not explain what I write.

In school, when I did bare my soul, teachers were befuddled. Are teachers more understanding today? I believe the answer is “Yes.” If that is so, than, perhaps, my personal history can be used to help those who, like me, are misunderstood.

Today, I do not feel misunderstood due to the fact I do not care what people think. Rather, I do not care that there are people who do not try to understand how my life is as important as their own. Rather, I do care, too, too, much, in attempting to be confident and happy which, today, when I look at my place and life, I am. I, myself, today, can attest that things in Life do, indeed, get better. Patience and education are essentials.

As you know, in my past, I could not stand myself. I thought I was a disappointment to many who thought I would be a success. I thought I had nothing to offer — or say. I now know these thoughts are not mine alone. Many of us fight this fight within ourselves. Today, I have the means to be who I am. I do feel appreciated. The only bullying I go through is from politicos who do not seem to understand that I am a person born with feelings and a heart that is easily broken. It took me twenty-seven years to “find” someone who I wished to settle down with and live a contented life. After we met, and began a life as one, it took over thirty years for our government to allow us this simple happiness which, for heterosexuals, is a given and can happen again and again. if they choose. Yes, I speak of marriage. For me, having a Partner who is a Spouse is the best confidence booster I have ever imagined. I did not think, forty years ago, this would ever occur. Patience was rewarded.

Education is a word many despise. Education has been, and is, an expensive hassle. Education is necessary for understanding. “Live and let live.” “Live free or die.” These two phrases were drummed into my mind at an early age. And, the most important: “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” This last phrase is one that is ignored by too, too, too many. How difficult is it to live a life of acceptance?

When René and I were officially married, we were accepted by most of our family. The few members who remain mum have been brainwashed by others who instill hate. Our happiness is ignored. We do no wrong against anyone. We do not threaten any others’ loves or lives. Our neighbors have been terrific friends. We do wish we could have been married years, nay, decades ago. By now, perhaps, I would not be writing these words. We could concentrate, instead, on being friends with everyone who breathes on this planet. Will the day arrive when we all get along? Is that simplicity too much to wish for on this small planet? Will some natural disaster soothe many uneasy minds? Have not we learned from history? Unfortunately, no. Many of us allow ourselves to be lead by greed and anger. Again, I have said this before, I shan’t reiterate my own words and thoughts.

I shall reiterate what I think of our Constitution.

This document was crafted to evolve with the education of those who live under its jurisdiction. Those who believe that its Eighteenth-century values are set in stone have hearts and minds that are cruel and unloving. It is they who need educating. Some of us are overeducated. We live by words and not the instinct of reality. They who do so are those who hinder progress. For me, progress involves sharing both wealth and happiness. I see no reason why People should be worried about where to live or what to eat. Again, and I have said this many times, Sharing is Caring. I hope to live long enough to see our Constitution perfected. I wish our government would comply with its simplicity of ideals.

In these fifty States, René and I, as a married couple, do not have the freedom to live a married life in all fifty. This is an odd thought, but, today, true. Why? Why can’t we go to any corner of this Country and live as we do here at Zwerglipatch as a free couple? We cannot due to the laws of taxation and acceptance. Frankly, some States do not want us and have officially discriminated us from living free lives. Is this fair for a Country that espouses Freedom for All?

The Freedom to live is an ideal we thought we had. I can accept not being accepted by individuals, but, by my Country as a whole this hurts immensely. I hope those few individuals will see us as a happy unit some day. I hope that these States will again be United. Today, they are not. When borders do not matter, unity can be had. Living side-by-side helps alter unwarranted fears. Until all fifty of these States accept, and allow, my marriage, I will continue my Butterfly War.

My Butterfly War is fought with gentleness. It is a War of Reality. A War of Acceptance. I dare say that each Citizen knows someone like me. Unfortunately, many people are still ashamed of their sexuality. I have met, and seen, too many who live in fear and hide behind a false facade of happiness when inside they pine to show their world, and neighbors, and family they have a love that cannot be altered. The day we can all live in happy acceptance of who we are is the day my Butterfly War will be a war of the past. History will consider this to be one of the tritest of events. I am hoping to celebrate this end.

Scribbling these words, today, supports my belief that anger and sadness can be quelled by patience and education and trusting the simplicity of true Love.