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I’m depressed that I’m still dealing with this divorce going into 2007. It’s one of those things you never see coming in life.
I had thought to have some changes after winning a court ordered amount of alimony in October 2006, only to have Otis ignore this order and refuse to send a dime.
With no attorney, I’m forced to learn the rules of court through trial and error. I attempt to get help from Legal Aid in Georgia who refers me to Legal Aid in Mississippi who flat out refuse to help me.
I’m in court four times between January and May with only $700 given in support in between. I’m so tired of it all and ask everyone I know to pray for me as I go back on May 25, 2007 for what I pray will be my last court appearance.
The judge is demanding witnesses and I have to call my children to testify. The judge states that I’ve failed to prove my case. She then asks Otis if he wants to stay married to me. He replies no and she orders us to go to his attorney’s office to get the paperwork drawn up to end our marriage.
I’m granted alimony for the next 20 months and the divorce will be final in 60 days. I’m stunned, elated and overjoyed at this outcome.
During the time the paperwork is being completed, I have my first conversation with Otis in more than a year, when his attorney leaves the room.
“So Gazelle, how have you been?”
“I’m fine, just fine.”
“Well, you finally get your divorce. I hope it makes you happy. The girls won’t speak to me.”
“That’s because they are angry about the way you treated their mother.”
“Well, I’m through with marriage. I know I don’t ever want to get married again.” I smile as I think of getting married again.
“Well, I’m going to get married again. God wouldn’t be so unkind as to make you the last man in my life.” These words warm me inside and I finally say something I’ve been meaning to say for quite some time. I look Otis in the face as I speak to him.
“I forgive you. For every lie, every underhanded deed, every hurt, tear and moment of pain you have caused me.” I see Otis is surprised and replies that he forgives me too. I will wonder what he thinks I need forgiveness for but don’t ask.
“I’ve started going back to church, Gazelle.”
“That’s good.” I ready to get away from Otis so I can have an end to the 20 months of fighting.
“I’ve got Diabetes, Type 2.” This revelation stops me cold. This disease can kill him and I wonder if his being unfaithful to me is being manifested in his health. I’m seeing what the punishment from the Lord looks and sounds like. I’m genuinely shocked and Otis looks away from the pity on my face. I have no further response. I sign the papers and leave with the knowledge that I don’t have to see this person I once loved anymore in this lifetime.
I get outside and start riding back to Georgia. I’m smiling and laughing with the girls. My freedom feels so good and I can’t wait to see what God has in store for me now.

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