You never really know what you’re willing to do to achieve your goals.

You never really know what you’re willing to do to achieve your goals.

After undergoing  our most recent set of tests it was discovered that in addition to everything else my thyroid is now not behaving. So, we have added synthroid to  everything else.

Also- it was determined we should meet with a nurse and try another type of treatment. It was time to go through injection training and prepare emotionally for the medical side of things to really feel like it follows us home from the fertility clinic.

Injection training was scary to me, even with my husband at my side. I had Bryan learn to do the injections as well in case I chickened out. At training you simply inject into a cube of material that reacts like skin and fat of the body, it feels similar in your hand, with the exception of not feeling the poke or medication going in.

The first night of my shots arrived a few weeks later, it was terrifying.

After a half hour of building up the guts  we finally put in the syringe and hit the release button  (Ours is similar to a diabetes insulin pen). Unfortunately the first night of injections we had to administer the shot twice, we had a malfunction and the medication ended up not releasing. Through all the stress, freak out and tears we forgot to listen for the second click.

The rest of the shots went much smoother!

This one is titled ” You never really know what you’re willing to do…” because it is true. When your dreams seem so close and your goals are set and you are focused you never know what you will do.

I was talking to my mom about how the injections were the part I was fearing the most since the option was presented months ago. Both my parents are diabetics and have been doing shots every day since before I was born- yet, It terrified me to think of doing this to myself.

When I told my mom my fears, she told me she once met a man who was diabetic and said he would rather die than give himself an insulin shot every day. It astonished me that this man could say this. Here I am alive, with no necessity, except my will to be a parent, to do these shots- and I was willing to. Yet, a man who  could potentially die without injecting his medicine was so willing to give up because he didn’t want to conquer his fear.

This blog is for those of you out there. No, it isn’t an easy journey- but if you  believe in yourself you may grow in so many ways along the way.

I’m not saying injections are for everyone. I’m simply saying:

“whether you think you can’t or you can, you’re right”

Who knows what this adventure will bring us, at least I know we try.