Today is a gift

You know the saying about not being able to change your past, not letting what you have no control of affect your ability to change what you can! Time is passing so fast and I want to do so many things in my life. I really know that I am the only one who has the power to make something so negative in my life not hold me back yet I do not feel any power, as a matter of fact I feel weak, like I am running so fast almost at the finish line in the race to put this behind me and then I get stuck in quick sand, not sunk but struggling every moment to get out and hoping he will reach to me and pull me out!!! I feel so alone. No one likes to talk to me about the affair yet I know every one is talking about the affair, just not to my face!